Lifelight Astrology May 2014

May 2014Congratulations –  if you’re reading this, you’ve just about made it through April, which ends with a Solar Eclipse in Taurus today, the 29th.  Every time we have a new moon, the Sun (masculine) and the Moon (feminine) come together at the same degree of the zodiac, birthing a new cycle.

At a Solar Eclipse, this union is so exact that the Moon’s shadow blocks the light of the Sun from our perspective, making it even more potent. With the moon being in Mother Earthy Taurus, I see this as a clear sign that this is a time to re-set our relationship to the Feminine, to our values, our priorities and to the material world… to get real basically.

The eclipse certainly sets the tone for the month of May and with the Grand Cross starting to back off a bit, hopefully the dust will start to settle a little and we’ll begin to ground more.

From my own experience and through speaking to lots of people, the way I would describe the energy of the past month or so has been like being adrift on a small boat in the middle of a rather turbulent sea. There we were,  sailing merrily going along on the surface, soaking in the sun, when suddenly out of the wild blue yonder, we got smacked by an unseen something, unceremoniously dumped off our little crafts and tumbled around as if in a washing machine. With zero visibility, our only option was to hang on and surrender, until it cleared enough for us to see which way was up. Eventually, coughing and spluttering, we emerged, shell-shocked and a tad bedraggled, accompanied by some of our deeply buried flotsam and jetsam, which had been shaken loose and joined us on the surface.

It feels to me as if we’re at  this point now, where we’re able to grab hold some of the debri (the old boat is history) and make our way to a small protected bay.  Once safe in her embrace, we give gratitude to our precious life giving Mother earth and rejoice in the  beautiful warm sand, fragrant smells, visual beauty, natural sounds and delisicous tastes. We connect to her endlessly abundant  life-giving power and start to consciously and maturely sort through the debris that’s been unearthed to find the lessons and the treasures that have shown themselves in our lives.

For most people I know, at least one thing has come to a head over the past month or so. Whatever had been lurking beneath the surface, unacknowledged, repressed or exiled, has popped up in one form or another –  either in relationship issues, misunderstandings,  loss of loved ones, health concerns or financial challenges. On the physical side alone, I can’t tell you how many people I know personally who have had mysterious illnesses or physical symptoms suddenly appearing, seemingly from out of nowhere. For many of us it’s been a hefty wake-up call as to where our lives have been out of balance, where we’re not being authentic, where we’re undervaluing or under-nurturing ourselves.

The way I see it, we can no longer hide – its time to get real.

Whatever learnings have emerged  for us are treasures, the diamonds in the rough, the knowledge that will lead us into a new cycle. This is the time to integrate the lessons and actively commit to moving forward in a positive, healthy way – emotionally, spiritually, mentally and physically.

What has drifted up to the surface for you?  What core beliefs have you had about yourself and the  world that aren’t serving you? What can you let go of? How can you value yourself and your planet more? How can you be more real, more authentic?

I loved this passage from “Love it Forward” by Jeff Brown. “ I am not interested in enlightenment if it means detachment from the emotional body, the earth plane, the challenges of being human. I am interested in “enrealment”, because it means that my most spiritual moments are inclusive, arising right in the heart of all that is human: joy and sorrow, shopping list and unity consciousness, fresh mangos and stale bread. Enrealment is about living in all aspects of reality simultaneously rather than only those realms that feel the most comfortable. We are not just the light, or the mind, or the emptiness, or perpetual positivity. We are the everything. It’s ALL God, even the dust that falls off my awakening heart.

The beautiful water trine that has formed in the heavens is providing even more feminine energy and insight and should hopefully ease the hectic energy of the grand cross, allowing us to gain real insight into our hearts desires, provided we  connect, soften and forgive.

During my Sankulpa (Iinspired Intention) workshop this past weekend, an amazing group of souls showed up and did just that. Through “losing the rational mind” for a while, they were able to connect to the deeper part of themselves that knows the higher truth, that is their essence. Through meditation, art and dialogue, each person walked away with a tangible (Taurean) truth which will serve as a guiding light as they move forward – a seed of pure intention.

I’ve been asked to repeat the workshop on the 17th May and its filling up really quickly, so let me know as soon as possible if you’d like to join us. Contact me for details.

Taurus is all about commitment and value, so the theme of finding out what we really do value and committing to it in a very real way is the theme for this whole month. We can do this every day, by stopping and really feeling into the special, beautiful, often simple moments that endlessly present themselves to us.  Instead of moving quickly on by when you have a good moment,  pause, listen, see, hear, feel and taste it  with your whole being.  Every time we do this, we start to re-programme our brains, literally hardwiring ourselves for happiness.

In realment




Lifelight Astrology – Lunar Eclipse 15 April

Lifelight Astrology – Lunar Eclipse 15 April



As we enter this week of eclipses,  grand crosses and more, rather than seeing whatever’s happening right now as a crisis, let’s choose to see it as  a giant leap for all of us and an  opportunity to learn, transmute and expand more than ever before.

Essentially  the astrology of the past few months has been leading to this point, so whatever’s been bubbling in our  respective pots, is coming to a head this week. It begins with the powerful lunar eclipse tomorrow in Libra (opposite the Sun in Aries) which brings unconscious emotions out of hiding and to the surface, for examination and integration. Being in Libra, the focus is on seeking balance in our relationships.  For me, this is not only about relationships with other people, although these will certainly be held up to the magnifying glass over the next week. It’s also about our relationships with everything else – ourselves,  money,  possessions, expectations, thoughts, emotions, bodies, beliefs,  work,  home, our planet. We’re all connected, so we’re all  in relationship with everything all the time.

The way I see it this week is that we’re being given an amazing opportunity to put our big panties on and get real – to deeply contemplate and be totally honest with ourselves as to where we are out of balance or integrity. Do our  expectations for others match our own actions?  Are we living authentically, speaking our truth or behaving in ways that others expect us to?  Are we being our own authority or looking outside for advice, approval and affirmation?  Are we ready to take complete responsibility for every single aspect of our lives?

Tempers could run high this week, with aggression and confrontation reaching epic proportions,  if we  are unconscious, reactive and hang onto the  need to be right. If however, we’re able to stop and centre ourselves, give up the need to be right, respond rather than react, choose peace rather than war, the energy of this week has the potential to push us out of the darkness and into the light. I really do believe that this is a potentially life changing week on a very deep level, so be aware of everything that comes up for you. Look at it, meditate on it, write about it, talk about it and ask yourself what its teaching you.

The word Temperance came to mind whilst writing this – in the dictionary “Temperance” means  Moderation of passion; patience; calmness; sedateness.

In the Temperance tarot image above, the angel has one foot on a the land  and the other in the river. In this stance she represents the need to “test the waters” before jumping headlong into unknown circumstances. In so doing, she tempers the whimsical flight of the Fool who sometimes jumps without giving a second thought. In her hands are two cups which she uses to mix water. One cup can be thought of as holding hot water and the other cold water. With temperance, we can mix the opposites and finds a balance in life, by avoiding extremes.

 Another interpretation is that she ceaselessly pours water (feelings) back and forth from one cup to another, because feelings must constantly flow and renew themselves according to what’s happening in every moment.

Playing with the word “temperance” a little further led me to look  into the word Temper, a very Aries word. It doesn’t only mean to go red in the face, stomp our little feet and throw our toys. Steel is “tempered” when it is heated up and then quickly cooled and in so doing, its effectiveness, strength and robustness is increased. (That’s what you see when blacksmiths stop hammering the sword on the anvil and plunge the glowing hot blade into a barrel of water). We’re all being tempered by whats going on and we will emerge stronger.

If you go back  even further to the older roots of the word, to “temper” something meant to prepare it specially by carefully mixing in new ingredients to create balance and that is what this time of alchemy is all about.

So here we go –- in full acceptance, authenticity and temperance –  we’re all in this together















Lifelight Astrology April 2014 – A month of Big Change!

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I’ve been seriously considering whether to write a newsletter this week, which is why it’s a little late, but have decided to give it a go anyway. This is a little more than an astrological write-up – the first part is more of a personal blog, straight from my heart, due to the place that I find myself in, with the astrology thrown in later. Please bear with me if this is a bit of a ramble, but I’m going to take you on a little journey to try and explain what’s going on “out there” and how it can play out in our lives, using mine as an example. If one or two of you resonate with it, then it’s served its purpose.

There’s a lot of deeply transformative stuff coming up for all of us astrologically in the next few months and the way I see it, the focus is on finding meaning in it all and in so doing, getting in touch with our authentic power.

So with that in mind here goes…  This really follows on from my last blog posted on 20th March (re-read if necessary – its under this one), where I wrote about us possibly feeling “emotionally cut off, isolated,  a tad depressed, negative, numb or even somewhat stuck…. Heavyish!”   Well!  Little did I know that a couple of days later, I would land up in hospital, where I would remain for a whole week, my physical body being prodded and plundered and my emotions roller-coastering like never before.

It’s a long story, which I’m not going to bore you with and I’m recovering back at home now, thankfully.  However, the whole experience literally brought me and my life to a complete standstill, taking me to a place where I was faced with  the possibility that this could be the beginning of the end of my physical life as I know it. Sitting alone in a sterile x-ray room, being told by a man in a white coat  that the fluid they found around your lung was likely to be due to you having  either cancer or heart failure, is pretty much guaranteed to give you a warm klap (for non South Africans, translate as a slap around the ears)   of giant proportions… or not I guess… if you’re enlightened, which I’m clearly not.  As he said the words, I could feel my egoic mind taking over, I could feel myself separating from my essence and sending my fertile imagination into some rather scary places.

This “diagnosis” led to all sorts of tests, which eventually, one by one,  ruled out both of those dire possibilities. The process of not knowing, however, took a whole week and at this point, the medical fraternity is still scratching their collective heads and  don’t have any answers as to what caused the problem that took me to hospital  in the first place and neither do I. What I do know, is that it goes way beyond the physical body. Perhaps being in the mystery is the answer for me at this point…that, as well as fully taking responsibility for my health and my life and connecting in an even deeper way.

Lying in that hospital bed at night, I had no option but to feel my feelings in techni-colour – no distractions – they ranged from bare-faced fear, to terror, sheer unadulterated panic, anxiety, unbelievable sadness, anger, aloneness, grief and even meaningless. My mind would try it’s best to rationalise it  and tell me that it would all be ok and that I could handle whatever it was and that people deal with much more momentous things than this  every second of every day.

My emotions, however, were having none of that.  It would often feel as if my heart was literally pounding in my throat, so loudly that I could hear it like an African drum had taken up centre stage inside my ears. Throughout all this, the only thing I could do was to surrender. The only thing that eased the pain, was to breathe as deeply as my lungs would allow and tell myself that I was supported by and connected to the Divine and that whatever happened, it was ok. A dear healer/teacher visited, (as did many) and did a very powerful healing on me the night before my little op and reminded me to repeat the Ho’oponopono – “I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you and thank you”. This is one powerful mantra, which I did all the time and am still doing, until I drift off to sleep. If you don’t know this remarkable story. There are lots of links but here’s one if you want to read more.   

As I continue to spend some in reflection –  writing, healing and just “being” with the feelings that come up, I find myself looking for “meaning” in a far deeper way than ever before. I’ve realised that with all the books I’ve read, courses I’ve done etc (and that’s a lot), the real work can only be done deep inside …. alone. I’m still in that place …no where near through the tunnel yet, but doing my best to surrender. In fact, what I know now is that I don’t know very much about anything all. Perhaps that’s an important step towards awakening?

For those of you who are interested and who are still reading, I do believe that the  astrology of this time is really, really urging us to walk the talk, to do what needs to be done in order to let go, transmute, wake up and bring new energy in. From late March through to May, we have yet another opportunity to go deeper, to transform and to set real authentic intentions, which will lead us towards finding real meaning and healing.  Fortunately that doesn’t mean you need get your butt kicked into a hospital ward like I did, but it does mean that transformation is going to happen one way or another.

First of all, we start the month with the Sun moving into the same degree as Uranus (planet of radical change) in Aries (new beginnings, intention) – so one interpretation would be  “Radically changing our intentions”. This activates the Uranus Pluto Square, which will later  turn into another Grand Cross (the 5th of 7 in total), which I’ve written about in detail before. This Cross will become exact again from 20th to the 22nd (over Easter), but the activation has started already. Joining Uranus and Pluto in the tight square will be lofty Jupiter, which amplifies everything and assertive/ aggressive Mars.

The next bit of this blog will mean more to people who have copies of their charts. If you don’t you can  try and intuit where it may play out or you might want to have your chart done. Astrology really does help to understand what’s going on… and what’s going on is big, people. This world, she is a-changing, like it or not and we need to keep up.

So if you have a copy of your chart, here goes. You can look up the house meanings on  I’ll relate it back to my chart, to help you get the hang of it, seeing as though I’m baring all today.

  1. First Look at where  12 or 13 degrees Capricorn is in your chart. That’s where Pluto is sitting– this will be area in your life where there are old compulsions, obsessions or control issues  that you need to release. Pluto is transitting my first house, which represents the physical body, how I project myself into the world and controlling my immediate environment -Ha! So much for that!)
  1. Next,  look at the area which houses 12 / 13 degrees Aries. This is where Uranus is. This indicates the area/s in your life that needs to be radically changed.– this is where you can no longer do things the way you’ve been doing them.. any more…finito!  Mine is travelling across my 4th / 5th house cusp. This means changes in and around my actual physical home (which is happening), family relations (that too), my deepest  psychological complexes and connecting with my real spiritual home. Recent dreams of re-organising furniture and moving houses have clarified that even more for me) Watch your dreams by the way…they’ll be profound.  The 5th house is the house of creativity or procreation. Seeing as though I won’t be procreating at this point, it could mean a change in the way I express myself creatively – yay!
  1. Then  look at is where 13 degrees of Cancer resides. This is where lofty, expansive Jupiter is travelling. This is the area where you will find expansion and nurturing, where your inner child might need some care and compassion. Mine is in the house of one-on-one relationships and close friendships. Even though I’m not in a permanent partnership, I have received more nurturing this last week than I ever thought possible. Thanks to each of you –  not a single text, phone call or visit went by unnoticed or unappreciated and each one made me realise that I am not actually alone in this physical world.
  1. Lastly, wherever 13 degrees Libra is situated is where Mars, the warrior king  is hanging out. Being in Libra, this indicates that its related to how we handle our interactions with others, how we judge others and where the reflections are. This is the area where you need to find balance, harmony and authenticity. This is where you need to speak your truth with loving kindness, where you need to be a peaceful warrior. Mine is in the house which relates to groups, group work, humanitarian concerns,  friends,  as well as future goals.

So that’s the Grand Cross – hard to explain but really big and important. As if that isn’t enough, we also have not one, but two eclipses this month, representing great personal and global change. The first is on  15April (in the Southern Hemisphere). It’s a lunar eclipse which means it’s a full moon – in Libra – more relationship stuff)  This one is the first of a string of four  “blood moons” which will happen over the next year and a half.  I don’t know much about them, but books have been written about them and there’s lots to read on the internet.

Essentially what will happen is that light from the sun to the moon will be blocked by the Earth, lasting about 77 minutes (visible only in the northern hemisphere, so us down south won’t see this one L. Some speculate that the blood moons are not just the result of rare alignments and that they are part of  a biblical prophecy to be fulfilled in relevance to Israel. Guess we will just have to see.  As I say, I know nothing. J  The second (solar) eclipse is on the 29th April , which is a new moon in Taurus. More about that later in the month.

So-  if you see life as a stage, then the set is changing and a new one is being constructed, not only in  April, but for the rest of the year. As far as I can see its about  Awareness, Awakeness, Authenticity, Attention, Intention and Meaning and taking responsibility for our lives.  I found this passage recently in a book that was lent to me by another sister/friend – what would we do without em?

The goal in life is not happiness, but meaning” – based on the work of Carl Jung.

That’s a very good place for us to start. . Ask yourself …What gives my life meaning?  Am I living that, doing that, even in a small way every day?  What used to make my heart sing as a child? Do I still do any of that? How am I using the precious energy that I have? Where is my attention? Is it on thoughts of doom, gloom and anxiety, or on grand possibilities?  Am I congruent… am I walking my talk? Am I living an authentic life or behaving in certain ways, just to please others?.  Whilst we’re so busy striving, pleasing and working to achieve what we believe we need to achieve, we sometimes forget to just be ourselves. Am I able to stand in my truth and authentically say what I need to say with firm loving kindness?  Am I feeling my feelings or medicating them away with alcohol or other addictions?

When the chips are down, and you’re alone and unsure of anything, who are you  at the deepest level – Who is the “you” beyond the career, the children, the partner, house, money, responsibilities, concerns, achievements?. When all that is stripped away, what is left? What is your deepest Hearts Desire? Etymologically the word “desire” comes from the Latin de and sidus –and one interpretation is “ to have lost ones navigational star”. Have you lost sight of yours? Perhaps it’s a little dimmed? If so, now’s the time to start clearing the debris away and navigating your way back home.

Please see my newsletter or contact me for details of the  Inspired Intention workshops I’m running on this theme in April . By the way, I will not  be showing you what your heart’s desire is – you will do this yourself – I’m just the tour guide.

I leave you with this thought by a favourite astrologer of mine Tom Lescher for this week. “ If I am to be a co-creator, It’s my job to know what to water, when and how, to regulate the flow. Whatever we want to grow in our lives needs our full attention and deep intention and that’s precisely what the astrology of this month is all about.

Wheweee. That’s me, over and out for now. Thanks for reading

In life and light